I thought I started my period but then it slowed down. Finally after the the bleeding slowed down so much on Saturday, I couldn't take it any more. I tested.
It was a pretty faint line on the home pregnancy test but definitely a second pink line.
I admit that I emailed 2 of my close friends that I knew could still be up 11 pm and cussed up a storm about having another failed pregnancy. They were super supportive as always. Then I phoned the on call doctor who told me I should start the progesterone supplements to stop the bleeding. I go on Monday for a blood draw to check my beta hcg levels.
I'm not one to share "weird feelings" unless I have some proof. At this point, I hope to have some hcg still left in my system for the blood draw on Monday. From my past experience, I'm not really thinking this pregnancy is going to make it.
I almost didn't share it with my pregnancy loss prayer group. But then I decided that it was a lack of faith NOT to ask for prayers. Miracles do happen after all. I just usually don't expect them for me.
I'm okay with it. Kind of numb I suppose. I've had two miscarriages, I can get through a third. I just want to know for sure what's going on. Things definitely aren't looking good.
There's no way in hell I'm announcing anything other than two a few friends that will understand.
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